Daughter of the King
See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!
Ahhh, what a week! I feel like I have learned so much these days, I don't even know what to write or where to start haha.
Ok, so last week our topic was The Father Heart of God. An incredible week for everyone I would say. We not only began to have revelation on how God sees us, but also how God sees the people around us. There are wasps flying all around me right now, and I don't like it. haha These are all super random but I would like to write about a few things I have been learning. One thing that really stood out to me that week was that having knowledge about God does not guarantee that we have revelation of God. We can know lot's of scripture and be super smart, but unless God gives us revelation, it won't change the way we live. We need Holy Spirit to transfer it from our head into our heart. 1st Corinthians 2:14 says that The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit. God wants you to understand the "why?". He wants you to understand his heart. He doesn't just want you to obey him because you are told to. He wants you to obey him because you love him. When you are in Christ, you are a new creation. New means new. (2nd Corinthians 5:17) God is not something, He is someone. He is someone, not something. His nature is that of a person. He thinks, He feels, He has emotions. He has free will, He has an intellect. And like, some of these things I have always known, but to actually sit down and think about it and meditate on it is so good. And to go deeper and see what the bible says is and you know, to search through his word and confirm these statements. It is important to know how I view God. It's important how I view him. And it's important to know how God views me. (Random Quote from Ricardo our speaker) When you live in the past You get anchored to your present And it condemns your future. There are so many more things that I have been learning!!! God is so amazing, so good and so faithful. This week our topic was Recognizing the Voice of God. And honestly I was super nervous at the beginning of this week. I am not super comfortable or confident in this area, but I know that I do believe that God does speak. Ok, so the first 2 days I wasn't really feeling it. I think I was just upset that I don't feel like I can hear God very well or clearly, or on a regular basis. And it was super cool what she was teaching, and I am glad I took notes cause now reading them I am like ah this is good stuff, but I just wasn't really excited about it. And also she was all for engaging the class and making us practice right then and there, and that also made me nervous haha. But this week turned out to be my absolute favourite week. Wednesday. She was talking about the hurdles we often face in hearing God's voice. Doubt, guilt, shame, feeling unloved, independence, feeling ruined, feeling rejected, and fear. When we got to fear, all of a sudden she was like, ok it's time to slay some fear of man. She made us get up, and move all the tables and chairs to the side of the room, and stand in a circle. At first it was easy. We had to find a line from a psalm and then repeat it out loud over and over and over. After that she asked one of the staff to play a melody on the guitar and then we were suppose to sing it out, all at the same time though, alone would be too scary ;) haha. After that we were suppose to ask God to give us a phrase to sing to him. And then we sang it, all at the same time. Then after a little while she went around the circle and made us sing in groups of 6, and that was scary haha. I was so nervous. And THEN the final one haha She asked if anyone would be willing to sing out to God by themselves. A few people raised their hands. So she picked one and then we went along the line all the way around and whoever wanted to sing by themselves could. Oh man, I knew I had to do it. I didn't know what I was going to end up singing but I was gonna do it. There were like 6 or 7 people ahead of me, so I didn't have much time to prepare haha. So, my turn. The first thing that came out was, Daddy! I wanna know you! And as soon as I said that. I burst into tears. Then Jen (our speaker) came over and laid her hand on my shoulder and said something but I can't remember haha, I think it might have even been in tongues. Then she ask if I would like to try and finish singing, and I continued, I think It was more like talking than singing, but that is ok haha. I just cried out telling Daddy God that I want to love him, I want his presence, and I want to trust him. Then the line continued and so many sang and it was so amazingly beautiful. Everybody's songs, everybody's hearts. No one was paying attention to the voices or even really watching. It was such a raw moment. I was literally crying the entire time haha such a mess, but I didn't care at all. Every day I learn how easy I cry, and every day I am learning that it is ok. And then at the end we all sang at the same time. UGhhh I have never heard a more amazing sound. It was soo cool to see (I guess hear) the difference from the beginning to the end. I have one more story haha Thursday. She gave us homework. Ask God who he wants you to bless, and how he wants you to bless them. (It could be a word of encouragement, money for outreach, anything really) So for a while I have had one person in particular on my mind who I wanted to help out. So I decided perfect opportunity. I wrote down the amount of money on a card and was going to give the card to him because I didn't have the money physically with me. But then in the morning during devotions. God changed the number on me!! Then I asked God, how about this much money, he said nope. What about this much? "Nope, I've already told you how much I wanted you to give" haha, then I was like, ok can you somehow confirm this to me? So, I opened my bible ready to do what I often do, and what also never works for me. You know, flip to a random page, and see what it says. So I flip to hebrews randomly and then the first thing I see is. But my righteous one will live by faith. And I take no pleasure in the one who shrinks back. Which is Hebrews 10: 38 for your reference. And I was like, woah. And I just stared at it for a little while. I was quite amazed and excited actually because God spoke to me!!! and he even confirmed it!! haha but I was also wrestling with God a little debating whether or not I would do what he had told me to do. I then decided, ok I am going to obey. I went and took the card and changed the number. and then I felt so so so so so so incredibly much peace. I have never felt like that ever. I didn't even want to leave the prayer room cause I felt so much peace, and I felt so close to God, and I just knew with my whole heart that he had been speaking to me, that he was there, he was right there with me. But then I left cause i had to eat breakfast before bible reading. And then came time for class, and then came time for gift giving. So we all sat in a circle. And the way we did this was. One person would stand up and call out the person that they were going to give something to. So we all got to see what God was doing. And then after they would leave the circle for a couple minutes and pray with each other. The receiver for the giver, and the giver for the receiver. I was just so ready to give my gift. haha I was almost shaking. So I stood up and called out his name. And told him, "quiero darte esta cantidad de dinero" Which means "I would like to give you this amount of money". And I gave him the card. and he just held it, so I had to tell him to open it haha. Then he opened it, and read it. And then he started crying. And then I started crying. Then he said, "God told me this morning that I would receive exactly this amount of money, but I didn't know how it would be possible". And then he gave me a big hug. And ah I could cry just thinking about it. haha So yeah, that's the story. God has given me so much joy. And he did so so so many cool things during that giving time, many tears were shed, and so many people were so blessed. Oh! And they gave us our outreach locations on Friday!!!! Indonesia, Greece, and Southern Mexico!!!! :D Ahhhhh and this monday they will tell us the teams and who is going where. Pray for that please!! :) Thanks so much for reading!! Sorry If my thoughts are all over the place. Don't forget. You are so loved. Many blessings!!!!!!
1 Comment
Gerry
10/17/2016 11:39:55 am
Awesome to hear how God is working in you al! Glad to hear that you are being obedient to His voice! Yay God!
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