Daughter of the King
See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!
Hi! :) So, remember the last post when I said that there were wasps all around. Well I got stung haha. And right as I was about to leave too!! I sat there for like 2 hours and then right as I was ready to go he decided that it would be nice to send me off by stinging me on the finger. (Random fact about me, I have been stung 4 times in my life, and they it's always been on my hand. and twice on the same finger)
Anyways :) Guess what!? :D We found out our outreach locations and I am going to MEXICOOOOOOO!!!! Well, I am already here, but I will be going to Hermosillo (Which is in the state of Sonora which is close to my cousin's orphange and my second home Guaymas) and CHIAPAS! (Which is a state in Southern Mexico. I am so excited!!!!!!!! I have always wanted to visit Southern MEXICOOO. It is apparently so amazingly beautiful and green. (unlike here where it is a desert.) Random side note: I keep writing the homophone of words instead of the actual word. For example, as I was writing "I keep writing, I actually wrote "I keep righting". And I keep writing hear instead of here. I don't know why this keeps happening. But yeah, I will be heading to Hermosillo and Chiapas! With my wonderful small team. There are 7 of us students and 2 leaders. I am also excited because I will get to continue practicing my spanish! I am not sure yet of the details of what our trip will consist of, but as I know I will let you know. One thing I do know is, that in Chiapas we will be going to some areas where you can't even get to with a vehicle! I am so excited to go hiking and ahhh it'll be so amazing. I can't wait to use the sleeping mat that I bought haha. And yeah God has been good, he is always good. This week for me honestly has been full of ups and downs. I haven't felt his presence as much as I did last week, but the amazing truth is, that doesn't mean he isn't with me. I have been learning that what I feel or think doesn't change what's true. This week our topic was fear of the Lord. The teaching was really good. I will type of some of my notes so hopefully they can touch your heart! Our speaker was super genuine and raw. It was a blessing to have her teach us. And in the last lecture we talked about sin, and one of the things that stood out to me was to have a lifestyle of confession. There is freedom in confession. And we need to confess our sins in order to overcome them. We need to bring them to the light so that the devil no longer has power. He loves to keep things in the dark. If you have a sin that keeps coming back, and you feel like you'll never overcome it, trying to do it on your own is religion. Confess your struggles to one another it'll bring so much healing. And also when you ask for forgiveness, say "I am sorry" don't say "I am sorry, but.." Unity is important to God. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Romans 12:18 Also, Capture you thoughts. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5 We talked about lies, and lies we tell ourselves. (I'm not good enough, I'll never change, I'll never be bold, I'm ugly, I don't know haha lies) And how sometimes, we have been believing a lie for a very long time. And often it doesn't just happen overnight, that now you think differently. She made us write out name with our opposite hand. And then afterwards with our normal hand that we write with. In the same way it can be when we are trying to overcome a lie we have been telling ourselves. It takes longer, and we have to concentrate more. It's not the thing we first think of. We have to train ourselves to continually recognize what we are telling ourselves and replace it with truth. Truth from God's word. Another reason it is so important to be active in reading his word. Another amazing thing I learned that I just remembered. Ok, so often we imagine God as the "angry God" how he is upset with us and that Jesus is the nice one who loves us. Maybe that's not true for you, sorry. haha but that is generally how lot's of us have perceived God. But listen to this. 6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 7 If you really know me, you will know[a] my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.” 8 Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.” 9 Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? 10 Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority.Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. 11 Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the works themselves. John 14:6-11 For I did not speak on my own, but the Father who sent me commanded me to say all that I have spoken. I know that his command leads to eternal life. So whatever I say is just what the Father has told me to say. John 12:49-50 Whatever Jesus said, the Father TOLD HIM to say. The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy; but I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son to the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. John 3:16,17 Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners - of whom I am the worst. 1 Timothy 1:15 For the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost. Luke 19:10 This has challenged me as I read the gospels and as I read the words of Jesus himself, to remember that this is what the Father was telling him to say. God was revealing himself, he was revealing his heart for us. Ahh so amazing. God is so beautiful. It was HIS will that Jesus would come to save us. He LOVES US. God HIMSELF LOVES US. Jesus came to do the Father's will. What king comes to serve? What king comes down from his throne? Every time we see Christ it is a reflection of the Father. When Christ spoke it was the Father speaking. When you are reading about the life of Jesus ask, "what does that say about God?" Ahh so cool. haha I am kind of like just copying my notes down because it is just that good. I hope you have been blessed. You are so loved. Peace <3 And here is a few pictures, some are from way in the beginning. Photo Credit to the amazing Olivia Meers. She is an amazing photographer and a wonderful person. :) (sorry for taking them, I just haven't really took any pictures) And Rahel took the group picture :)
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Ahhh, what a week! I feel like I have learned so much these days, I don't even know what to write or where to start haha.
Ok, so last week our topic was The Father Heart of God. An incredible week for everyone I would say. We not only began to have revelation on how God sees us, but also how God sees the people around us. There are wasps flying all around me right now, and I don't like it. haha These are all super random but I would like to write about a few things I have been learning. One thing that really stood out to me that week was that having knowledge about God does not guarantee that we have revelation of God. We can know lot's of scripture and be super smart, but unless God gives us revelation, it won't change the way we live. We need Holy Spirit to transfer it from our head into our heart. 1st Corinthians 2:14 says that The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit. God wants you to understand the "why?". He wants you to understand his heart. He doesn't just want you to obey him because you are told to. He wants you to obey him because you love him. When you are in Christ, you are a new creation. New means new. (2nd Corinthians 5:17) God is not something, He is someone. He is someone, not something. His nature is that of a person. He thinks, He feels, He has emotions. He has free will, He has an intellect. And like, some of these things I have always known, but to actually sit down and think about it and meditate on it is so good. And to go deeper and see what the bible says is and you know, to search through his word and confirm these statements. It is important to know how I view God. It's important how I view him. And it's important to know how God views me. (Random Quote from Ricardo our speaker) When you live in the past You get anchored to your present And it condemns your future. There are so many more things that I have been learning!!! God is so amazing, so good and so faithful. This week our topic was Recognizing the Voice of God. And honestly I was super nervous at the beginning of this week. I am not super comfortable or confident in this area, but I know that I do believe that God does speak. Ok, so the first 2 days I wasn't really feeling it. I think I was just upset that I don't feel like I can hear God very well or clearly, or on a regular basis. And it was super cool what she was teaching, and I am glad I took notes cause now reading them I am like ah this is good stuff, but I just wasn't really excited about it. And also she was all for engaging the class and making us practice right then and there, and that also made me nervous haha. But this week turned out to be my absolute favourite week. Wednesday. She was talking about the hurdles we often face in hearing God's voice. Doubt, guilt, shame, feeling unloved, independence, feeling ruined, feeling rejected, and fear. When we got to fear, all of a sudden she was like, ok it's time to slay some fear of man. She made us get up, and move all the tables and chairs to the side of the room, and stand in a circle. At first it was easy. We had to find a line from a psalm and then repeat it out loud over and over and over. After that she asked one of the staff to play a melody on the guitar and then we were suppose to sing it out, all at the same time though, alone would be too scary ;) haha. After that we were suppose to ask God to give us a phrase to sing to him. And then we sang it, all at the same time. Then after a little while she went around the circle and made us sing in groups of 6, and that was scary haha. I was so nervous. And THEN the final one haha She asked if anyone would be willing to sing out to God by themselves. A few people raised their hands. So she picked one and then we went along the line all the way around and whoever wanted to sing by themselves could. Oh man, I knew I had to do it. I didn't know what I was going to end up singing but I was gonna do it. There were like 6 or 7 people ahead of me, so I didn't have much time to prepare haha. So, my turn. The first thing that came out was, Daddy! I wanna know you! And as soon as I said that. I burst into tears. Then Jen (our speaker) came over and laid her hand on my shoulder and said something but I can't remember haha, I think it might have even been in tongues. Then she ask if I would like to try and finish singing, and I continued, I think It was more like talking than singing, but that is ok haha. I just cried out telling Daddy God that I want to love him, I want his presence, and I want to trust him. Then the line continued and so many sang and it was so amazingly beautiful. Everybody's songs, everybody's hearts. No one was paying attention to the voices or even really watching. It was such a raw moment. I was literally crying the entire time haha such a mess, but I didn't care at all. Every day I learn how easy I cry, and every day I am learning that it is ok. And then at the end we all sang at the same time. UGhhh I have never heard a more amazing sound. It was soo cool to see (I guess hear) the difference from the beginning to the end. I have one more story haha Thursday. She gave us homework. Ask God who he wants you to bless, and how he wants you to bless them. (It could be a word of encouragement, money for outreach, anything really) So for a while I have had one person in particular on my mind who I wanted to help out. So I decided perfect opportunity. I wrote down the amount of money on a card and was going to give the card to him because I didn't have the money physically with me. But then in the morning during devotions. God changed the number on me!! Then I asked God, how about this much money, he said nope. What about this much? "Nope, I've already told you how much I wanted you to give" haha, then I was like, ok can you somehow confirm this to me? So, I opened my bible ready to do what I often do, and what also never works for me. You know, flip to a random page, and see what it says. So I flip to hebrews randomly and then the first thing I see is. But my righteous one will live by faith. And I take no pleasure in the one who shrinks back. Which is Hebrews 10: 38 for your reference. And I was like, woah. And I just stared at it for a little while. I was quite amazed and excited actually because God spoke to me!!! and he even confirmed it!! haha but I was also wrestling with God a little debating whether or not I would do what he had told me to do. I then decided, ok I am going to obey. I went and took the card and changed the number. and then I felt so so so so so so incredibly much peace. I have never felt like that ever. I didn't even want to leave the prayer room cause I felt so much peace, and I felt so close to God, and I just knew with my whole heart that he had been speaking to me, that he was there, he was right there with me. But then I left cause i had to eat breakfast before bible reading. And then came time for class, and then came time for gift giving. So we all sat in a circle. And the way we did this was. One person would stand up and call out the person that they were going to give something to. So we all got to see what God was doing. And then after they would leave the circle for a couple minutes and pray with each other. The receiver for the giver, and the giver for the receiver. I was just so ready to give my gift. haha I was almost shaking. So I stood up and called out his name. And told him, "quiero darte esta cantidad de dinero" Which means "I would like to give you this amount of money". And I gave him the card. and he just held it, so I had to tell him to open it haha. Then he opened it, and read it. And then he started crying. And then I started crying. Then he said, "God told me this morning that I would receive exactly this amount of money, but I didn't know how it would be possible". And then he gave me a big hug. And ah I could cry just thinking about it. haha So yeah, that's the story. God has given me so much joy. And he did so so so many cool things during that giving time, many tears were shed, and so many people were so blessed. Oh! And they gave us our outreach locations on Friday!!!! Indonesia, Greece, and Southern Mexico!!!! :D Ahhhhh and this monday they will tell us the teams and who is going where. Pray for that please!! :) Thanks so much for reading!! Sorry If my thoughts are all over the place. Don't forget. You are so loved. Many blessings!!!!!! |
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November 2016
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